The novel is at that very delicate stage between inception and disillusionment. It always is. I am subject to obscure moodshifts and the occasional ribbon of ducks crossing my road. In my case–this week–a friend whose judgement I trust commented, “What is it the main character wants?”
Which is inadvertently The Kiss of Death. A few years ago I went to see Dennis Lehane speak at the Dogwood Festival in Dowagiac (it’s coming up May 10th, if anyone is interested) and he said the only thing a reader needs to know is…
what does the main character want?
In his example, the thing wanted needs be no more complex that a glass of water–readers will read an entire book just to see if he gets it–but they need to know what the character wants.
So if my friend, attuned to my writing, doesn’t know what the main character wants, I have slightly less than 200 pages of pointless rambling crap.
Also my writing group is struggling horribly with this mess. We read approximately 5 pages a week. I have ‘too many characters’. I either have too many tags or not enough tags, so they either never know who is talking or they are distracted by the tags. (Sometimes they’re both in the same section.) They don’t know where the story is going. They don’t know what it’s about. They can’t remember who did what from one week to the next and this week I just shook my head and brought them a piece that has nothing to do with the book. I’m just…frustrated, I think the word is, because either I have to stop listening to anyone else and finish the book or throw it in the trash. I’ve read it. I actually think it’s good. But then…I wrote it. And it has no audience. So now I have 2 1/2 books written for no audience.
In the meantime I am not building a reputation as a writer because I don’t do anything with the stuff I write. I save it in doc files on my computer. I have an entire collection of ‘Fat Girls’-like bits I finally just dropped, I have a collection of think pieces that I happen to think are fairly spectacular, but…what would I do with them?
Maybe I should just publish them here.
Here’s one. (This is from the abortive and unpublished humor book.)
The Trumpet Vine
Many years ago I used to ride over with my Dad to visit his mother and then she and I would sit in lawn chairs in the back yard and sip iced tea while he mowed the lawn. I loved working with my Dad. I probably should have jumped up and helped him, but mowing my grandmother’s lawn was problematic. It had something to do with what he consistently referred to as “that (expletive deleted) trumpet vine.”
My grandmother had a trumpet vine that grew on her fence row. I had no idea how old it was. Trumpet vines don’t really have ages, they have…regenerative properties. My grandmother’s trumpet vine had regenerated. At least as I recall there was a time when the fence row was clean and free of any vining material, and then eventually I happened to glance at the fence and it was in flower. Big reddish-orange trumpets bloomed the length of the fence, and considerably wider than its breadth.
“That’s pretty,” I commented to my grandmother.
“I like it,” my grandmother smiled at me.
My father muttered under his breath and stalked off to find the mower.
Apparently my aunt—my father’s big sister—happened to visit my grandmother (she lived less than a mile down the road) and she too admired the trumpet vine. “I’d like to have one of those someday,” she may have remarked.
The trumpet vine apparently heard her.
It popped up a volunteer about four feet away from the mother root. Here, the trumpet vine whispered to my grandmother, this is for Margaret.
It is possible this is not exactly what the trumpet vine said. It may have said, this is for Meg. I venture this thought because I happened to write my aunt a note, perhaps ten years ago, and she sent me a reply and in the reply she mentioned, “I like to be called ‘Meg’.” My father’s older sister Margaret, who lived less than a mile down the road from my grandmother’s house (which was eleven miles from ours,) and whom I had known at that point for roughly fifty years, liked to be called ‘Meg’. Good to know. I love my family dearly, but we are not great communicators.
So anyway, the trumpet vine popped up a starter vine and said to my grandmother, give this to your daughter. And my grandmother walked out into the yard, drove a small plastic marker into the ground next to the volunteer, and the next time my father showed up to mow the lawn she said, “Don’t mow the baby trumpet vine, I’m saving that for your sister, Margaret/Meg.”
I was familiar with her plastic markers. My grandmother was exceptionally fond of tuberous begonias, which are like ordinary begonias except they grow pretty leaves and flowers and, as a plant group, die faster and more easily of more diseases, dissatisfactions and moods disorders than any other plants I have ever tried to grow. This comparison includes African violets (which she also loved) and tea roses. I am not sure exactly where tuberous begonias came from, but I suspect it may have been the floor of a tropical rain forest. They grow particularly well in the damp, mossy corners of professional greenhouses. My grandmother grew hers in the begonia garden on the north side of the house where they flowered to her satisfaction (“Come look, Princess Georgia Lee just bloomed, isn’t she lovely?”) They did not, however, grow particularly stout or hearty plants to support these blooms and so my grandmother staked them up with her plastic markers and festive nets of string. I grew up with this. I thought it was normal. Eventually I set up my own house and I found spindly plants to be something of a genetic inheritance and I asked my grandmother where she acquired all of those wonderful and ever-so-handy plastic markers.
My grandparents had owned and operated a dairy farm.
The plastic markers were the tubes through which apparently very agile men blew bull seeds into the wombs of dairy cows in order to artificially inseminate them. I have never been able to get this image out of my mind, of big, husky men in flannel shirts and jeans dancing around the backs of Guernseys while poofing bull sperm through plastic tubes. It had never occurred to me to wonder how that was done before.
My father would fire up his mower and march back and forth across the lawn until he came to the plastic stick marking some calf’s future and his big sister’s designated volunteer and he would mow a-r-o-u-n-d the volunteer and then go on down his line. This might sound simple to a maintenance mower. My father was a professional groundskeeper. So while he did refrain from mowing the trumpet vine reserve to the ground, he did stop, lean over, and pluck away all of the long grasses sprouting up around it. He left a tidied vine as it curled affectionately around its artificial insemination tube.
My aunt apparently was not one to rush into a commitment.
My grandmother—bless her heart—was not one to keep one of something when twenty would do.
I may have antagonized the situation myself, but I did this only because I was ill-informed. I may have said to my grandmother, “That’s pretty—I want one.”
The trumpet vine heard me.
POP! Another volunteer. This is for Cheryl.
Someone drove by in their car, caught sight of her fence, and thought to themselves, ‘Nice vine’.
POP! Another volunteer.
My grandmother hobbled to the shed for her reserve of artificial insemination delivery devises.
Her side yard began to look like a plastic tube garden.
“Don’t mow those little vines,” my grandmother director my father, “I have people who want them.”
My father began stroking his string trimmer affectionately as if they had secret assignation later in the day.
“And who are these vines for, exactly?” my Dad would ask.
“Well, there’s one for Margaret, and one for Cheryl…”
The look on his face when he snapped his head to look at me nearly broke my heart. How could you? That look said to me.
“I want a trumpet vine, Dad,” I said. “I want to plant it by my front porch …“
“You don’t want a trumpet vine,” my father said.
“Oh, for heaven’s sake, Bob, let her have a trumpet vine,” my grandmother said.
“Maybe I should get two,” I planned with my grandmother, “I might accidentally kill one…”
“You can’t kill a trumpet vine,” my father said. And he stalked off across the lawn.
“What’s wrong with him?” I checked with my grandmother.
“I don’t know,” she said with a heavy sigh, “he’s always been like that.”
He came back with thirteen plastic bags and a shovel. He maneuvered his way through the forest of plastic tubes and began digging up clumps of earth and depositing them into plastic bags.
“Now Bob, you know your sister wants one of those…”
“She’s wanted a trumpet vine for six years now,” my father said, vengefully stabbing at something in the earth with his shovel, “does she ever come down here to get it? Hell no. In the meantime I get to mow around the things until hell freezes over—how many do you think she wants? Six? A dozen?” He casts a significant glance around the ever-growing collection of plastic markers in the lawn. “I’ll take it to her.”
My father never talked much. Two consecutive sentences out of my father constituted a rant. This was an entire paragraph, and the vehemence with which he delivered it left me uncertain about exactly how to handle this outburst. This was my father. Communicating.
“I’ll take two, Dad,” I said as gently as I could. In my tone I tried to convey the thought, we’ll get through this, really Dad. Mom’s not here and you know Gramma, so we know no one is going to make us talk about this…
I got six.
I never asked Margaret/Meg how many he brought her.
My grandmother gave me a sad look, and began silently pulling artificial insemination tubes out of her lawn.
He loaded up the bags of volunteer trumpet vines into his truck, and then he mowed that lawn. Clean. Flat. Not a plastic tube or a stick or an errant blade of grass sticking up anywhere.
Since that day I have learned a few things. One of the things I have learned is that the thing he was vengefully stabbing at in the earth with his shovel was the root to the volunteer trumpet vine. I have no idea why scientists carry on about the tensile strength of spider webs and steel: clearly none of them have ever tried to sever the root of a trumpet vine. I have learned that you can’t kill a trumpet vine. I told my story about my dad, my aunt, my grandmother and the trumpet vine to a man I worked with—he grew up on a farm—and he told me he dug the vine out of a fence row once, stripped the roots naked, left them on a burn pile with no shelter, no water, and no nutrients for three weeks, then poured gasoline on them and set the burn pile on fire, and the next year the burn pile was covered with trumpet vine. An established trumpet vine runner will stop a mower blade cold. The vine itself will climb up the side of a house and start pulling down the porch, given half a chance. At the very least it will crawl in under the siding and pop off a section of fascia.
And the gentle little baby volunteers my grandmother’s vine popped up for those of us who admired them? Everywhere. By the time the trumpet vine had established itself, I had volunteer trumpet vines popping up out of the ground fifteen and twenty feet away from the original plant. They grew faster than the grass. They were curled up lovingly against the foundation of the house, their tiny fingers feeling, feeling around for cracks to grow into…
I really should have torn out that vine, but it was stronger than I was. Someone had told me once that I couldn’t kill it, and it seemed like a bad move politically to ask him to help me get rid of it.
In the end it was easier to sell the house.
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